APOLOGY FOR THE FUTURE

dear oldest son,

today was a day like most days.
a fine day.
a great day.
but years from now,
when you look back at your school photos,
you will no doubt discover,
yet again,
that your mom wasn't perfect.
that she made mistakes.
that she forgot things.
things like school picture day.
so when you look at your school photos,
years from now,
please know that,
yes, you needed a haircut.
and yes, your shirt was too small.
and yes, i had to dig your pants out of the hamper
because i desperately needed to do your laundry.
but also know that i love you.
and regardless of how your crazy photos turn out,
i will think you look great.
maybe i'll think you need a haircut,
and i'll think your shirt was too small,
and your pants could have been cleaner,
but mostly, i will think you look cute
and adorable and handsome.
i hope you can forgive me,
in the future,
when you look at your school photos.

love,
mom